I Hate Depression

no one gets out aliveSo some new MRI study says that depressive folks feel hate differently than other folks. And then somehow they end up saying that depressive folks feel more hate for themselves than other folks do.

As I’ve gotten older, I have found that my patience has grown in all things except for stupid people. They really frustrate me and make me angry. So maybe I do hate them. So does that mean that normal people don’t hate stupid people?

I don’t tend to think of myself as hating myself either. I’m one of the best folks that I know. I’m definitely not the best person that I’ve ever met, but I’m so ‘way far above most folks that it’s just embarrassing.

On the other hand, I do tend to be pretty hyper-critical. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good a job that you do, there’s always something that could be a little better about it. I see that this is definitely true for me. And I believe it true of most other folks. And it’s really especially true of stupid people.

So I really don’t think that the proper term here is “hate”. I suggest that they’re instead measuring criticality. It’s not self-loathing, it’s self-criticism. It’s not hating others, it’s nitpicking them.

So the reason depressive folks feel hate differently is because it’s not hate they’re feeling. There’s a critical difference. Don’t be stupid! You people give me a fatal case of disappointment.

Honestly, my overwhelming feeling in depression is that of being defeated. Been there, done that, and I even sell the t-shirt.


About Lyle Verbilion

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