As I’ve gotten older, I have found that my patience has grown in all things except for stupid people. They really frustrate me and make me angry. So maybe I do hate them. So does that mean that normal people don’t hate stupid people?
I don’t tend to think of myself as hating myself either. I’m one of the best folks that I know. I’m definitely not the best person that I’ve ever met, but I’m so ‘way far above most folks that it’s just embarrassing.
On the other hand, I do tend to be pretty hyper-critical. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good a job that you do, there’s always something that could be a little better about it. I see that this is definitely true for me. And I believe it true of most other folks. And it’s really especially true of stupid people.
So I really don’t think that the proper term here is “hate”. I suggest that they’re instead measuring criticality. It’s not self-loathing, it’s self-criticism. It’s not hating others, it’s nitpicking them.
So the reason depressive folks feel hate differently is because it’s not hate they’re feeling. There’s a critical difference. Don’t be stupid! You people give me a fatal case of disappointment.
Honestly, my overwhelming feeling in depression is that of being defeated. Been there, done that, and I even sell the t-shirt.